dreams

Lyrics My dreams make me toss and turn and wake up in cold sweats Feeling like I'm being choked to death By my own regrets it's just another step Towards understanding the stress but the visits from the faces of death Re open a depth Those i rendered, dismembered failed to comply or surrender 10 years and it took me til September Before I would allow myself to remember I really do hope it will help regain my center At least for those that I love like my family members And friends And it might not be a means to make it to my ends But hopefully now I can finally actually mend Us to one another So maybe my old lady doesn't have to smother Her screams as she suffers Every night underneath the pillows and covers And every night I hear the squeels of my fallin brothers (Chorus ) Lord if i grow old(Lord if i grow old), i be shock myself (beshock myself) Cuz only lord knows(only lord knows), all the pain i was dealt(all the pain i was dealt) (I should kill myself) (Verse ) And everyday it's getting harder and harder to cope Sliding down the slippery slope. Of life That hasn't been quite right since returning home And since then lve grown More isolated and alone I'm hardly ever leaving my home And I know that, places more stress on my family And you can see it by all the looks on their faces They constantly question my sanity I never planned to be Or even stand this shit When from out of no where I can feel it hit When my pulse begins to rapidly race And im drenched by the sweat upon my face And my ears start to ring, my vision is hazed Im more alert, vigilant and ready to face An enemy i long since i put in the grave And every night I close my eyes i can see his face (Chorus )