perfect man

Look at me now I'm disgusted with my mother fucking self And for my family I put him through another day of hell I can't count all the times that I fell Deep into avoid of following my own addictions Self afflictive unwelcome disposition I can try and get help but I'm afraid nobody will listen I'm not trying to paint myself off as a victim I bear all the pain and all the blame it was my decision And I aim to do right but now i keep on missing So it's my fault that I remain unforgiven So why should I give a fuck If I ever get a helping hand up I got bad luck And life fucking sucks This white fucking cluck Left crushed So many regrets in the dust Up in the heart who cannot trust I called the heaven up above Dear Lord I wonder if you can listen to us (Chorus) I may not be the perfect man but Lord i'll die trying All the pain and hurt I caused, All the ones I love just crying Oh Lord it hurts deep inside Make me do the time to equal all their tears Let me wipe away all their fears (Verse) I can't help this feeling Up at night staring at the ceiling Wondering if fate Will be willing Look past now all the killing And instill then Moralist limit this it's ridiculous I'm left to witness the viciousness Pay dividends I'm left of living in as an unforgiven Vinton is unrelenten system As hell impaled This empty shell My eye wells swell As I've watched and fell You tell Me Who I came to be But fuck you see You didn't make me You didn't shape me Even though lately I know I'm shaky Lord take me Cuz I feel like I'm going crazy Cuz even I hate me lately greatly Whether or not that you forsake me Cuz I can't help but look at my face And feel up out of place And this dark hollow gaze Makes it hard to shave (Chorus)