sinner

**[Verse 1]** Once a man of might, now just a shell I trust, Friends are few, and in betrayal, they dwell, I adjust. Punished for my sins, though it's unjust, But my loved ones bear the scars of my unjust thrust. Buried ties run deep; they scurry 'cause they're kin, must, Desertion left me trapped; in a rut, I’m thrust. Fourteen long months, and the court stands robust, I pray for freedom, for my home, my sacred crust. Homesick heart, dialing her, but the phone just bust, Want to say sorry, express love, it’s a must. We were meant to stand together, fight life’s gust, When sober, life was gold, without the drink's mistrust. Drinking turns me savage, her heart it cuts and rusts, Illegal to call, our memories turn to dust. Curl in bed covered, tears flowing, love unjust, Vodka pours like rivers, but my thirst’s combust. In this windowless prison, I stand reduced, nonplussed, Isolation grips tight, friends call, I'm but a ghost, encrust. On social, they scream my failings in disgust, **[Chorus]** Trying to live, a sinner in a state unjust, Giving so much, but it's never enough to thrust, I want it all, but in success, I still feel bust, Trying to live, though I'm wrapped in sinner’s crust. **[Verse 2]** Advice seekers surround me, looking for life’s gust, But regret shadows me, at life’s end, it will combust. Madness fuels my mind, it's a treacherous trust, Chasing cash, give my voice, yet joy's a ghost, unjust. Everyone's wearing masks, feelings in the dust, Drugs hide our truths, kill us slow, consumed in rust. Walk in my shoes? Two steps, you'd fall and thrust, My battles are secret, my walls, my constant bust. Two loves torn apart, two hands, my grip's robust, My life's through this game, tight, never going to adjust. At journey’s end, will I even have my lust? Burn the doubters’ words, watch their disbelief combust. **[Chorus]** Trying to live, a sinner in a state unjust, Giving so much, but it's never enough to thrust, I want it all, but in success, I still feel bust, Trying to live, though I'm wrapped in sinner’s crust. **[Verse 3]** A sinner by heart, I seek light, but shadows combust, In darkness, I sit, where life's scars misadjust. Chains feel like jewels, vodka's my only trust, Haunted by thoughts, they crush, try as I must. Still, through the game’s trials, with scars discussed, Lucky to breathe free, not in steel walls, entrust. On a mission fueled by passion, don’t misjudge my thrust, If a problem calls, meet me, I’m ready, robust and just. Catching their slips, their Downfall’s a foreseen bust, Careers crash like cars, shattered dreams combust. Ekoh’s words uplift, positivity discussed, Bottle's poison fades, but my audience must trust. **[Chorus]** Trying to live, a sinner in a state unjust, Giving so much, but it's never enough to thrust, I want it all, but in success, I still feel bust,